i am very upset right now. don't know why. frustrated and bored and i want to eat somethings that are good, but where do they go? i have not seen any of the friends that are my-size, nor have i made an effort. sara is miles and miles away in sara land, it seems. MILES. absolutely.
and. oh, huff. i had a sad dream. at first it was the two gay guys eating pizza. they had slick pony tails. their conversation was very intense. then one of them starts talking about a dead wife and kids, and all of a sudden i'm in the street with this gray blue sky and busy curvy streetness, and there is a bus, and a woman and these babies get thrown out of the window of the bus. and these acrobat ninjas were supposed to catch them, but it was a scheme and they didn't catch them because they were BAD acrobat ninjas. and the babies are no where to be seen and the woman isn't dead. she's shouting and her spine is broken, but -this part seems funny now- her legs and high heeled feet are waving around in the air, and when i go over to her, she kicks me. she kicks me again and again and shouts and i stand there so she won't get run over. then a group of women with short hair and floral green dresses pass by, and i ask them if they could please call the police, and they say "of course!" and laugh and get out a cell phone, and i look at the woman, and i wake up.
i want to go home. i don't want to go to georgia, for some reason. i want to be in a collage paint paper prefect place like on my wall. that would be nice.
posted by Barnacle |